The Horde

Weekend emotions

What a mix of emotions I have right now. I'm excited for my son because he is getting the chance to spend time with his father. I'm nervous and scared that something will happen and I am over 300 miles away from my son. Grant it that is a 6 hour from one city to the next with the Denali national park between us. Half lost not sure what to do because I have had my son at my side for the last 13 plus years.

Ok! How did this all come to happen? My brother was going out of town for the week so he handed me the keys to his jeep and said go have fun maybe go camping. Well that sounded like a great Idea. So, friday I rounded my son up after work and away we drove back to our home town. I was having a blast. Grant it we got into town about 1 in the morning so instead of waking people we just camped right there in the car. Then once awake I called my ex to let him know we were in town. I got growled at about not calling ahead. That I did my best to brush off simply because that was him and I know he needed to understand I dont flex on every thing he says.

One thing lead to an other and I had to get a phone repaired while there. So it gave the guys a chance to hang out. While hanging out someone had the idea of a week long sleep over. After we parted ways. For the day my son asked if it would be ok for him to spend the week with his father. I was frustrated and stressed over the idea but instead of being an ass I answered with "What do you want to do? I will support you either way."

I know my son wants dad time he needs it badly I'm just not sure his father is the right one for the job. I pointed out goid and bad thing then ended with no matter what happens it is his choice and will support him.

We grabbed lunch then went over to a local park to spend the next 4 hours with friends. My son played several games and had a blast with our great friends in the park. He even was given two foam swords so he could come back and play again.

We camped again in the jeep. The following day we had breakfast with my ex and his girlfriend. We all talked things over then went over to were they were staying. After a while my son asked to stay the week. Instead of saying no I handed him money and his emergancy card.

This week will be hard on me for all I can do is think about how my son is doing.