me...

my life today 082920

well, it's been a while since I put anything on here but trust me, I have been very busy. I have been under tremendous stress with everything that is going on here in Florida. And I have to deal with it all on my own, but I always drop in when I can but usually not for very long.

Well, I am finally moving out of my mom's house. I move into my place on September 1st. To me, that means the last bit of my former life has been swept away. I needed all that stuff and memories removed so I can be the person I am supposed to be, and the person I have always been but has been hiding behind fear and other superfluidities. I just wish the person I wanted to see me now, would see me... but alas, not going to happen. I believe she would have been proud that I am finally the man she saw inside me. But its ok, I don't need anybody's permission to be me.

The job is still a major stressor in my life. my direct supervisor is my ex's uncle. Ya! and before you say it I know its a bad thing. I agree. but I haven't killed him, yet.

My nephews have been fighting for hours today and I'm ready to Jason Voorhees them and go back to work on getting ready to move. Ahhh! well, ADHD, unmedicated kids are still kids. Comme la vie! such is life!