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I am starting a new chapter in my life..... |
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I started job hunting today...... sort of. I am working with my new friend Audrey (employment specialist) to get ready to go job hunting. We're going to be redoing my wardrobe (somewhat) and doing practice interviews and such. This is where the journey will be documented for posterity. I also will throw in news about my writing now and again as that is what the site is for. Okay, so there are scraps of anything that might affect my life ... |
| Second thoughts..... and thirds.....and fourths....... I don't know if I can do this. I tried going to work before but I ended up quitting after 2 1/2 weeks. I hate taking the buses really early or really late in the day. Winter will be here soon, and I don't think we can count on another mild one like last year. In fact, with last year having been so mild we're probably in for a harsh one this year. That's why I quit last time. Having to catch buses and then still having to walk through the snow for two or three blocks. I really don't want to let Audrey down. I don't want to let myself down. Some may say I'm setting myself up for failure by telling myself now that I'm not going to be able to do it. Will I really be able to keep my eye on the prize this time? I do need the money. I do need to feel better about myself. but is it going to make me feel better about myself if I can't do it? _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________- I'm heading into a depressive episode already with my writing. I am so horribly blocked. I don't even know if I am going to be able to finish October Novel Prep Month, let alone be able to do NaNoWriMo. What am I going to do? I've been reading inspirational sayings, meditating to reduce my stress, working with my Runes..... nothing seems to be helping. I'm dragging myself from day to day and I keep cancelling appointments and classes. I feel just okay when I get up in the mornings and by 1 pm I'm dragging and wanting to go back to bed. All I want to do is lay around...... My life just really sucks dirtwater right now...... |
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Stress = not good. Have no advice though. Breathe? I'm coming out of high anxiety and depression. It's been a slow uphill struggle.