Red Opium.

I agree with Kelly although I don't let her know that all that often. Self harming is not the answer, try and write it down or talk to some friends or something, I tend to find talking it out with Kelly and a few other friends I have online is actually a great comfort for me, but maybe you feel better through your writing. Try a few methods that are not self harm, Kelly knows a few, and see which one works for you.

Alex.