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I might as well not even be here right now. I've been so spaced out for the past 3 days that I've gotten literally nothing done. I went to school on Wednesday and almost immediately left because I was so disconnected to my surroundings that I started getting panicky sitting in a room full of people. So, I missed all of my lectures for that day. I haven't been able to work or do any studying since.

It takes me about 5 times longer to do things than it should. I was working on an entry for "Pursue the Horizon - Open for Signups"  and I started it last night, but couldn't finish it. I finally finished it today-- "Invalid Entry" ! I think it probably took like 4 hours in total to write it and I barely even wrote anything. 90% of it is just a poem by someone else.

This happens to me a lot, especially when I'm getting migraines or if I'm super stressed out. I get this dissociation/derealization thing and I just can't focus. Can't do anything. Everything feels far away and far too close. I don't know.

It's just off.

And I really, really need to get shit done.

Best,
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