"A Problem Page For All!"

I'm angry at Nathan too!Why does he feel he has a right to comment on your size & say you're getting fat?Please try to remember that the problem is his not yours,he should love you whether you're 20 or 200lbs and it's sad that your being a little bigger (if you even are & he's not wearing contact-lenses back to front!)is an issue he feels strongly enough about to comment on.All I can say is that,like most of us,he's probably been brainwashed into believing that women are only their most attractive at a certain size.Does he know that his comments have upset you?Sometimes it's hard to win where men are concerned,most think that the Barbie physique is really sexy but no woman could have a HUGE chest but no waist,butt or thighs...it's impossible!None of us are made that way,there's no way we could become that and we shouldn't want that.I wish I could talk to Nathan,tell him that he shouldn't chip away at your esteem,ask him if he'd rather hug an 80 lb emaciated girl or the beautiful,real girl he already has,the one who's beautiful inside and out,who loves him for the person he is and who isn't sending him to the gym so he'll turn into a musclebound hunk!Try not to let it get to you angel or you'll wind up like me,convinced that beauty is having no flesh anywhere,just a whole bunch of bones ,which is sick...but I can't help it!You are beautiful Cait,you're not fat....but even if you were I wouldn't care because you're such a lovely person,which Nathan thinks too!Maybe he bumped his head on a locker at HSU & isn't thinking straight?!I love you pumpkin,don't get down about this okay?!YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!(& Ilyttmaba!)xxxxxxx

What I've got they used to call the blues,nothing is really wrong,feeling like I don't belong.Walking around some kind of lonely clown,rainy days & Mondays always get me down!