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nineteen years here on earth.. I stretch out the time, right from birth. Ive pondered, and crawled, managed, and got up. but lost myself in the process. Ive dreamed, and written, laughed and stood hidden. Ive stopped my life, killed myself way to many times. for what I dont know, I wonder what it was all for. nothing.. thats right. nothing feels right. nothing is right. not drugs. not people. me nor you when will it end for me. well, see. in my little time in life, I have sumberged myself so much into the deep dark sea of the world. I went and fell and its so cold. left with a key, and a door. that wouldnt open. my luck. so, what do I do, I kick it open. to the other side, to not be able to get back. so then I realize on my journey, that the road i took, isnt for me. I always ask oo so secertly what do you do, what do I say, what do i do, to go back to the correct way. do i fall some more? do i shed more fucking tears. do I dream another dream, just to get lost in it. no one can tell me.. because everything i do, Is up to me. sometimes its good to get yelled at I dont even have a parent to listen to who is it I go to. no one.. am i good or am I bad, i know i have all the reasons to be mad. but i bleed as i write whats inside of me.. a burning I can put out, no problem but sometimes i should just let it burn, for awhile. I let it out, and cry to myself, i do not need any help. I can do it by myself.. theres been many times and many nights, I felt like i couldnt breathe. and there was no one around me that could help me.. and it was indeed my fault. I dont talk, im the one, they all talk to. i never speak my mind, just on the paper. you can look at me, and im gonna seem fine, even if my whole worlds falling apart, it doesnt matter, its just mine. like right now. as im typing this. right off the top of my mind all these feelings, put into words, i wonder how do you like my verse? ashlie spickelmier 624 mar 15th 2010 |
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