The days went on as we tried to adapt to the college environment, it was clear that although I though Jake was nice and desired him our interests just didn't overlap at all. He was a jock, I wasn't, and I wasn't planning on becoming one either, so beyond small talk about how the day went and more eating sessions the opportunity to develop a deeper and more lasting bond just wasn't there. Not even in the weekend, as Jake's new friends invited him to try the frat boy experience meaning I was stuck in the room alone not having made any friends yet.
There was another problem with Jake though, and although it was nothing serious it was getting on the way of my fantasies. I noticed how despite the way he ate in the cafeteria making full use of all the food options the college provided he was also making full use of the gym and the baseball field because his small gut if anything was becoming smaller. Like the good athlete he probably was, it seemed he was making the extra effort needed to burn all those calories he ingested everyday much to my chagrin, my fantasy was never going to become true!
With nothing to do I spent some time watching TV, reading and eventually fantasizing about how a relationship with Jake could develop, at this point I didn't even know if he was straight or not but I was crushing on him hard, picturing myself wrapped under his powerful arms after I confessed my feelings and he reciprocated them, spending time together even if I had to learn about boring baseball and in the process making sure he no longer was as focused on sports, to see all those things he ate daily having an effect on him, making his abdomen softer and his gut grow more and more. I didn't know if he was in college thanks to some sport scholarship but in my fantasy I didn't care, he eventually would forget about those dumb sports and pick up other hobbies as his body kept getting rounder, softer and his belly kept growing and providing me with a special warmth every time we cuddled..
I groaned with frustration, this feeling wasn't going away. Not as long as Jake was my roommate, but what could I do? I could keep snooping on his belongings to see if there was something I could use, I could plan something to try and make him stay around watching sports or playing videogames instead of training so much, or I could just "confess" to him I liked someone just to see how he would react. None of this sounded like great ideas though, I felt that at best I would be betraying the trust of a roommate that so far has been nothing but nice and at worst I would actively sabotage his college experience. Maybe I should just wait and see how things develop like a normal person instead?
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