Disappear

Pictures of the times we would laugh, have come and gone.
And now that I am here, those memories would have to vanish.
Into the night, I crawl to your side
for warmth and love that I have missed.
Into the depth of my heart,
I have to hold the tears,
as I watch myself unravel
into a a loose ball of thread.
Want to hold you and be loved by you,
will never come to be.
With all I have in me I will never cry on your shoulder.
With all I have I will never put my guard down,
to let you or anyone else hurt me.
Until I hear the pharse "I love you with all my heart and soul."
When you love someone you tend to love them forever.
I see myself alone
until my last days.
I try to hold myself back from those you know will hurt you.
But still time knows no boundaries, and then again I will never know.