A brief review of the aging process on the the human body. |
Can’t I just be done now Can’t I say I’ve had enough, I give it back, I don’t want it, I don’t need it Why can’t I go back to rushing through my day Stopping just long enough to maybe get a cup of coffee that got too cold to drink Because I didn’t have time Now the coffee gets cold because I’m too tired to even pick up the cup or worse I’m too afraid to pick up the cup and watch my hands shake as I try to Hold on Now I stop all the time And rest For no reason, I didn’t work all day How can I be this tired, and have nothing to show for it The house is still a mess, dishes still not done, paycheck is down How can I be this tired How much pain is manageable, I’ve tried and I’m not succeeding Mind numbing pain – the brain is a dull buzz While the arms, legs burn with pain. Or worse, painful stabs in all four limbs as the head feels like an implosion. How many times can I fall down and still try to pick myself up I don’t feel like laughing about it anymore, it’s not funny anymore I don’t like to go out in public by myself now – I’m not independent anymore. I want to kick and scream, I want to shake my fist and shout It’s not fair…. And sometimes I do, but not today Today, I sit with my head in my hands And cry for no reason For every reason This doesn’t feel like my body, this isn’t what I expected And I still try to smile, but I am afraid; I cry when no one sees – try to hold everything in; And I’m losing even that small bit of control; it’s overwhelming – it’s madness And I just want to be done now I’ve had enough. |