A Season

I never thought the music of you,
would echo in my blood's structure.

So afraid of everything inside of me,
screaming out with increasing mental agony.

Confusion knots the organs saftely nestled,
within the vessel labled as me.

Terrified your probe will dive deeply,
to only eventually collide with my disease.

A battered analysis of the disturbing,
energy drawing me to your orbit.

Chemical connection sparked by common,
interest or recognized hidden desires.

Poems written to ease the electric,
charge of gray matter melting in depression.

I felt your acceptance, I crave your drug,
so addicted to the illusion.

Reality distorted in tunnel vision.
I await the oasis to disappear.

Slicing into my sturdy barriers, holding
the wound open for your inspection.

Come closer and drink from my,
spring of anxiety and self-destruction.

Dominate aspects of our relationship.
Submit to my offering of tenderness.

Horrified of your emotional betrayal
but only the possiblity of.

Pleading for a little understand
and hoping you'll stay a season.