Bound

Trapped, tied down, held and confined,
These are the feelings that control my mind.

Staring out the window as life passes me by,
Wondering what will happen next, what holds me back and why.

Why can't I move forward, why am I left behind?
Why can't I get on board, is it some sort of sign?

A sign to tell me I cannot succeed?
Why am I having these thoughts, take them away God I plead!

I want to move on, I want to achieve,
I need to get out of this place so I can breathe!

It feels like I'm suffocating, trapped in a box,
I can't find the keys to open the locks.

How can I get out? I'm scratching the wall,
Everytime I feel close to getting out, I fall.

Fall back to the bottom where it all began,
Then those thoughts come back I can do it, I can!

But is it enough to say and not do?
If you trust enough will your dreams just come true?

If you plan each step and say, This is for me,
And it doesn't come to pass say it wasn't meant to be?

Should that be enough to calm all your fears?
Should that be enough to stop all your tears?

How do you go all way back to square one?
And at the same time stay sane, smile, and have fun.

Pretend its okay, that everything is fine,
When you know in your head your about to lose your mind.

Struggling with thoughts of whether to try again,
Set myself up for failure, or just let defeat win?

I feel like my thoughts are pounding to get out,
Will I continue on this way, or for me is there another route?

I guess I have no choice but to sit back and see,
Where will life take me, in my future where will I be?