abandon me

please just forget all the words you said to me....
forgive me for this outburst this cry for help this insecurity..
i dont really care anymore why things happen the way they do...
i believe in love and happiness all the time...well i used to....
now i have only one love...one life...but thats more than any before...
abandon me take me away from a happiness that i thought i had that i wanted to adore....
its way too much to ask for a life of ease and i understand that....
walk away tho and leave me to die...wait you'd never know if i did..that's that....
move on move away betray everyday i dont know what i thought you had to say....
....but not this time....not now am i going to give in....not today....
walk away from me...be just like your gods and goddesses...abandon me....
i no longer want you to grow up living loving and seeing all of me.....
toodles good luck...bye ... later....good ridance...peace...
can you please give me your respective part of my heart back atleast.....