I forgive myself.

I thought it was me who was wrong,

and I shed a few more tears,

It hurt when I thought of you gone,

You never called.

I remembered the day you said you were leaving,

and I cried so hard I could not cry any more,

and then I shed a few more tears,

I saw you in my dreams and in my eyes, I was lost,

and still you never called.

I remembered you said you loved me and you were crazy about me,

You made plans to be with me,

You kissed me and shared your soul with me,

and then I shed a few more tears,

and it was lonely in my world and it was sad,

and still you did not call.

And then I remembered you lied to me when you said you cared about me,

and I rememebered how you left me alone with only this hurt,

and I was angry because you did not call you did not care,

The days I wasted loving you and the nights I gave you all I had,

and still a few more tears were shed,

Days and nights empty and quiet had passed,

and then you did call,

Instead of angry words or lashing tongues, I forgave you,

I forgave myself,

because I believed in you when I should have know better,

because I didn't listen to my gut feelings,  and leave sooner,

because deep in my heart I knew this would happen, I was lying to myself,

and so I forgive myself today and I will move on,

I forgive myself,

and I don't care if you call,

it doesn't matter.