i wrote this poem for someone i love |
Do you ever think we talk too much? That we both spend too much time Worrying what the other will think About our special rhyme Maybe it’s just me; I’m not so sure you care I mean, why should you anyway? It’s not like I’m always there; Standing behind you, in your long shadow Mourning over you When you’ve gone away. Others seem suspicious When we talk and laugh Sometimes they join in with us And other times they’ve had enough Do you think that we spend too much time together? Do I worry too much about things? Do you really see nothing but friendship? Nothing else, no more? But then why to you give me that look When I decide to do traverse afar Leaving you in the doorway Alone, a darkened star. Why do you care when I leave you? And why don’t you follow when I go? Do you ever wonder what will happen? The day I don’t return? When I wonder, I begin to worry, Will we drift apart? I shouldn’t be in so much of a hurry, To leave this dusty old town, But when I think of the future, Nothing here is written down. So why can’t you say what you’re thinking? Sometimes I don’t think that you care. But then when I’m broken and crying, Somehow, you’re always there. You’re the trusty shadow behind me, Always ready to make me laugh You’re the candle through my darkness Always ready to save my life. You’re the cheese to my cake, The ice to my cream, There’s nothing I would change about you, Nothing at all, it would seem. I know how I see you, but not how you see me, Am I at all important to you? Am I at all as irreplaceable As you are to me? If I am then why do you do this? And make me feel this way? Make me write long poems That take up more than a page My rhyming messing up, my timing’s really off, But I don’t care, I’m almost through, With what I have to say. I lied to someone today, About how I feel about you Now I wish I hadn’t, Now I wish I’d been true. I wish I’d said the things I’ve told you so many times I still don’t think you believe me Because of all the old lies. If I hadn’t lied, where would we be? So far apart? If I hadn’t lied I wouldn’t be here, Spilling this blackened heart. Nothing is so important As making you understand How I feel about you Is not just contraband. I wish I could tell you in person And not just through notes and mail But ever time I try Someone else is there Ready to judge, ready to pry And steal this secret of mine But a secret it must remain Until you understand, valentine. You must understand my mindset, And how my heart does soar Whenever you’re close or around me And my eyes begin to pour Sour tears of regret, Bitter tears of sorrow, Angry tears of resentment And frightened tears of tomorrow. I don’t want to drift and float Off to distant lands At least not without you with me My one and only, true best friend. I want to stay this way forever, The way we are just now But without this awkward feeling Deep in mine heart of shadow, I’ve tried I really have, to forget these feelings of mine So once I again I must ask… Do we spend too much time together? Really dear I must know Because this heart of mine won’t listen Unless you’re nowhere near. So if we don’t then say it, I doubt much will change If we do then scream it, It won’t be all that strange. Just wrench my feelings from my chest, And toss them on the ground. Stamp them to the dust Crush them into the grime. Please dearest, it’s only mercy, To do me this final right. So sorrowfully I end this So mournfully I say I love you dearest, truly, Now, Forever, Never, Today. |