My dearest beloved ... my first love.

My dearest beloved…my first love.

In you I find solace within my
heart and yet you overwhelmingly
control my emotion that runs
through me and makes me
irrational at times.

More often than not I do things
because of you, because 
you are with me, you are in me
the reason to believe that
what I do is right.

When it comes to you,
right is right and wrong is right.
No question of what,
why, or how I can deliver
the right reason.

Because the valid logic
of reason is taken over by the truest
and honest emotion, that
I think is the main salvation
of my soul, my happiness and
continuance of my life.

When you are in my thoughts,
my love for you intensifies in a degree
that I can never understand, and
probably never will.

When I look back memories of you,
it creates a limbo of doubts of uncertainty
and yet provides a lift of faith in you,
because I love you so much
and I always will.