I don't want

I don't want to hear this was meant to be
I don't want to hear that you love me
I don't want you to know how many times I've cried
I don't want you to know how hard I've tried
I don't want this black cloud to stay any longer
I don't want my anger toward you to become any stronger
I don't want to regret us, but I do
I don't want to feel betrayed, but I do
I don't want to hold onto a relationship full of hopes and partly sunny skies
I don't want to hold onto a relationship full of broken promises and lies
I don't want you to think I won't be ok
I don't want you to think I want you to stay
I don't want to try and be friends like we once thought we could
I don't want to pretend that it's possible for I know neither of us would
I don't want to keep believing that you truly care
I don't want to keep believing that what I expected of you was completely fair
I don't want this to end with a tear on my cheek
I don't want to keep searching for the forgiveness that we both seek
I don't want either of us to look back on this with sorrow
I don't want either of us to forget that true love does exist and there's always tomorrow