Ashes In The Night (part 1)

I sink in cloud nine
as your visit continues
your haunting me
with visions of happiness
I feel confused

The thought of death doesn't consume me
at least not as much
as when I was enfatuated with yours
a heavenly death
no less

one that will follow me to my doom
and haunt the very shadow I leave untouched

a brush here
a kiss there
breathing on my neck
my skin feels bare

where are you now,
I cant see you, but,
you feel close
so close to me
settling in like a bad dream

are you waiting for me to fade too?
fade just like you....
well I say nay!
nay to you, and your unbearable youth
of non-exisistance
take me down with you,
on a second note, wait

I don't wish to drown
not like you
in their screams and written sorrow shown,
why, why must you be like them?

can't you rid us of your being
just return to me, in deaths waiting arms
its better than being cursed
a life of mortality but no morality

how can you live and sleep un-dead,
knowing what you are?
doesn't it make you sick,
to wake up and know you can't feel regret?

regret for all the things you do
regret for all the things you've done
regret for what you are
regret for what you've become

when I look into your eye's
I see a hidden sorrow and desire
but you won't tell me, no....
to much pride in those lonely eye's
you've hidden behind

you're losing focus of who you are, who you were
when your with me, be with me, not anyone else
leave your pride behind
I can make you feel, even if it's not what you seem to want

I'll set you free
child come to me
I'll raise it high
to the sun rise

come crashing down
it sinks in
into your skin
the sharp end, no longer visible
once it pierces in

I hold you tight
"please, don't cry"
I plead, as you leave me completely
fading into dust, the soft wind carrying you off
I wish it wouldn't have had to have been that way
but I couldn't have let you stay
knowing what you were
even though the last thing you'd ever hurt
hurt you before you could blink
but I did it with love
......I think......