Where were you When I needed you so, Absent as I grew up Mom taught me everything I know. I'd cry myself to sleep Each and every night, Wondering how I could make My Dad see the light. What if I put my toys away And ate all on my plate, Is this what made you leave And caused you to hate? At four years old I became the man at home, Taking care of the family you started You didn't care enough to phone. Never had that influence To show me how to be a man, I have always felt like My life was stuck in quicksand. No one to teach me How to throw or bat, It was when I was fourteen When the bottle and I began to chat. I drank to forget The despair really started to rain, How else is a young boy Supposed to deal with this pain? School was a joke I really hated you, Daddy don't care about me Was the only lesson I knew. With no education and job My only option was crime, I was willing to risk Easy money for doing time. I've been out for a year now After doing five for my misdeed, I had a lot of time to think And work out a new creed. Don't know why you left Leaving Mom and I to deal, That was the reality No matter your spiel. My pain I have to confront And finally put it to bed, Putting my life together For the woman who I'll wed. I'm better in spite of this A victim no more, Meeting all challenges head on There's much more life in store. In order to move forward My fury for you can not last, This is why I tracked you down So I can bury my past. I forgive you openly But I will never forget, You have to deal with your demons And pay for your own debt. I'm sorry Mom didn't see How I turned my life around, I wish I would have honored her better Before she was buried in the ground. Soon my first will be born I swear I'll never cause that pain, I won't be absent in my child's life Breaking the noose of your chain. |