I too am human

I tried to be what you wanted,
but just when I thought
I had met your expectations,
you made me realize
that all I had done
just wasn't enough.
It's not right, you know,
to treat me like you do.
Yes, I owe you a lot,
but please bother to care
that I too have feelings to share.
I try to live by your rules,
letting go of all that I can,
but just so you know,
it's not easy to be what I am.
It did hurt when you failed to see
what I had dreamed for
and all that I had wished for.
My world, my life
it was hard to surrender
but it made you glad
and so it was all that mattered.
Crying myself to sleep,
I hated you for doing so,
but my relationship with you is so complex,
it makes me laugh with pain.
I mean to love you
but sometimes the hatred is so strong,
I despise myself for feeling so wrong.
I pray that someday you realize
I too am human,
wanting to live my life
without the fear of your shadow
haunting my every move.