Numb

I say
    Dont bother.
    Stop trying.
I really mean
      Dont leave my side.
      Stop turning away.
                        I love you.
      You make me cry.
      Night and day.
Because I always say Good-Bye.
      After time I feel so numb.
      No more tears fall.
      Now its only blood I shed.
      Completly dry.
      I feel nothing at all. 
      Empty.
      Why am I still trying?
      So I still love you?
              Every drop,
              Red.
              Blood?
        Supposed to show life.
                        Why?
              I feel nothing at all.
              I shouldnt be here.
              I dont deserve the human life.

                            Because I made myself,
                                                            Completly Numb.