Monster

I awoke only to feel afraid,
for not remembering the previous nights
thunderous rage.
It was time to go but yet i stayed.
I am drowning in the waters where i used to wade.
Left to go back and fix the mistakes which i made.
The debt from the harm i caused was a great wage,
which left a tab on my soul that may go unpaid.


Was it me or the alcohol that began provoking.
I was already gone but took another dosing.
Days later i just kept hoping,
that things my friends said i did , that they were joking.

The hours past through the hour glass
but i cant recall the minutes.
Time was swept away to fade
because i went way past the limit.
To lose control of my feet and fall
with the wrong turn step or pivot.
When my friends left i should have
knew it was time for me to finish.
Yet i stayed ,in a drunken masquered
oblivious that i would exhibit a menace,
and unsteadily parade , in the nights seranade
demented and deminished.

All week i felt alarmed
"Besides myself who else have i harmed?"
If they took my bottles i'd be disarmed,
not knowing that i really fell hard.
Leaving things in shambles, shattered in shards.
Without an ounce the serpent is barred,
but with a sip the snake is charmed.