How I Truly Feel

How I Truly Feel

Everything outside begins to crumble in this, my own little world
The birds have stopped their melancholy song
Nothing seems to live here any more
And everything begins to fail me
My heart shatters like brittle glass upon the floor
My mind twists in unending ebbs
Everything I fought for is lost again
Everything is meaningless now
Nothing ever goes right when you're me
Everything seems to always be my fault
And nothing is ever good enough
One day they all shall see their faults
Realize it was not always me
They'll suffer and crumble like I have had to do
And feel their heart rip itself from their chest
They'll know my true pain and then they'll see
Nothing is ever good enough in this world of contradiction
No one is perfect no matter how hard they try
Everything in the world of true believers is contradictory
And everything in my world is in pain
But at least I can say I have something over them
I am in pain and they are not
But they are all blind and trapped
I am free and I can see