Pointless Feelings

Hating and loving the feelings

Pointless feelings.
You came without my permission.
I didn't want you.
But you came anyway.

Why do you give me false hope?
My extension of my hands reach out for something unreal.

I don't care.
I'm like a sorry pathetic drunk that needs you.
Bottles of you give me happiness.
Always at the end
I hit rock bottom.
Reality gives no remorse.