Longing For You

Why do you torment me so? Longing from afar yet being so close. Close enough to touch, to hold, to love. Yet you’re with another. Someone else who gets to do those things, leaving me in the dust. Behind. Forgotten. I sit and watch you two, giggling and holding each other. Wishing I were he and he were me. We talk, have fun, yet you don’t know the pain I go through. Longing for you ever so, yet knowing I’m not allowed. Do you know how desperately I want to be able to hold you and love you and have you love me back? How long I think about you deep into the night? These things are not to be. So I sit and smile and talk, laugh and be happy. While inside I’m broken. Broken and alone, longing for you.

- Max Jurock