Flesh and Ego

It was the way your ego gurgled in your throat
That made me want to rip it out.
Ermine white
Kiss and tell
All the way up the curve of your ear
And slip of lips-
Over your chin
Into my open mouth.

It was my heart that gagged first,
Reflexively in my chest
At the taste of your pomposity.
That brought me close
To losing my stomach.
Hold back my hair
Imagining you here
A piece of bad flesh
Encroaching upon my ripe fruit
Like a microscopic yeast-
Budding.

I can stop it now
With my frigid stare
My stone cold fists
Or by covering up my ears-
If will would allow.
Maturity
Altruism
Haven’t I been this?
A thousand times before-
Turn my cheek
Keep the peace
Take one for the team?
And then it was the dreams
That let the anger take control.
Never thought I was able,
To smash in your nose
Watch the blood drip drip drip
Down your ermine neck-
Over that lump vibrating.
Could I pop it with a pen?
Let the air out
Drain the voice from your throat-
So I never have to hear it again.