Insecurity

A deadly killer has me in its claws,
devouring me from the inside silently,
It just grows bigger as I love you more,
can somebody please lend me a remedy?

The other day as you hugged an old friend,
I could feel my heart hammering my chest
But it surely skipped a beat baby,
when he uttered “love you” and you nodded and said yes.

I've got so used to you,
That I get worried when you're not around for long.
A wave of shiver rushes down my spine,
When I hurt you, I do something wrong.

While asleep I keep asking myself
Will you be mine tomorrow?
Is there joy written for me
Or just tons of sorrow?

I wonder whom are you speaking to,
when you spend hours on the phone.
But even more terrifying is the thought,
of you crossing the street alone.

Wiggling my way through those love calculators,
I try to keep alive my hopes.
In my quest to find what's in store for me,
I keep reading the daily horoscopes.

You often tell me its impossible,
that no one will accept our love.
With my fingers crossed and a prayer on my lips,
I plead to the heavens above.

I keep searching something in your eyes,
Are you meant to be my destiny?
'cause though you may not see it girl,
I'm scared to death by this Insecurity.