Selfish-ly Empowered

No, not now
not today, this time, or next.
It can not,
        yet will,
              but won’t,
    Stop me.

Head up and chin up,
Morale down, yet not shown.
I trudge on, I must,
As the days move on.

Mistakes made by the abundance,
A superfluity of occurrences:
I progressed onward through chance,
      so I told myself;
truly knowing the probability.

It would happen again,
disillusionment and failure.
Yet the simplest of solutions lay imbedded:
Look in the mirror! And ignite that inner ability.

To adapt and resemble,
and become and to acclimatize.
The burning and yearning,
to be successful and significant.

Not to you,
      but to me.
You be you, with your standards and judgments.
      I’ll be me, with my inferno,
burning with fiery, with integrity and motivation.

I will, no doubt!
Be who I want to be.
Prerequisites may be mandatory,
But they have not met my conflagration.

Please don’t misinterpret,
I mean no harm.
Figuratively, I shall consider myself,
Inexorable!  Yet maintain it,
completely transparent.

I can not and will not,
say that I can’t.
Due to this delicate principle,
How shall you expect to say I can’t?

You Can’t! And Won’t!
Nobody will.
If you do, beware,
It shall only fuel my air.

So please do,
                    I beg!
No money, no women,
No cars or boats,
Will motivate me more,
than that of your attitude and doubt.

This release I’m feeling,
the world at my mercy.
I shall asphyxiate it for all its worth,
        Leaving nothing.


-- A. J. Stevens