Soliloquy

I look at your face and you can't meet my eyes,
A smirk on your lips as I ask the inevitable,
Thinking its time that we said our goodbyes,
All that you are is illusion and confusion.

You think that I don't know the score?
I can play the blonde oh so very well,
Did you think I'd keep coming back for more?
I must switch off my heart lest I fall apart.

Every lesson I learnt has been the hard way,
Made me strong enough to let you go,
So that I can part ways without a display,
I know after all you don't see me at all.

You're used to girls you manipulate with ease,
I see far too much to allow you in,
I know what I say is bound to displease,
Have you ever truly been seen or is this just routine?

You spun webs of deceit to fulfill your desires,
Thought I'd be inspired to go above and beyond,
The problem is that what this requires,
Is that I be deaf and dumb, blind and numb.

Now that I know just who you are,
I can show you all that I'm capable of,
In spite of you I will lift the bar,
All that held me back was the courage I lacked.

The truth of my soul is veiled from your eyes,
That you misunderstand is no surprise,
I'll do my part, wont return your lies,
That I let myself believe is my demise.