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The emotional rollercoaster when sick and tired is tired of being sick and tired |
I’m thru!!! You are so full of it Your lies and your ego and your talk is full of shit And my attempt to believe in you is making me sick Five years of giving and loving and kissing and fucking And you still don’t know what you have Until it left And I bet All the lies, and your ego and your talk has no meaning Cause everything you stood for had no feeling And everything I meant to you also seems Like the lies that built your ego and catered to your talk I gave you everything I had mentally and emotionally And you took it with you when I put you out Cause you stole from me and now I am without Life I sent you out as sheep amidst the wolves Who knew you would lose track & be pulled Only to find within you the real man I needed You lost track & heeded on another’s wants and you proceeded To be what she needed you to be Only to secure everything you need Your greed, once again has you in a place you don’t care to be And now you desire to be with me Lies & manipulations keep me at bay so I can’t see I’m blinded by love only and the rest is history But the best is locked up with a key of mentality Cause what I needed to know I wouldn’t find out unless you told me Up late one morning I watched thee, it brought out the old me And you promised to love, protect & hold me But hold up, now she’s pregnant with your seed And you hang around because of your selfish needs And as crazy as it seems I always wanted to be That woman who had your back and stood by your side Giving all that I could to keep you alive Holding on to every word like a child to mom’s pinky Believing every verb and noun you kept speaking But your sneaky….. You made me believe that we could achieve my ultimate dream But you deceived me And now when I lie down at night, fighting to sleep I keep thinking of How you’re laid up with her In the beginning it was simple but it’s those things in life we forget Loving you was easy but who knew that it would get Hard, slippery when wet Taking spills and falls trying to forget I let you abuse me mentally with cheating relentlessly Cautious to my dignity, but loving you infinitely Yet you deceived me Intrigued me with the warmth that lay beside me Sometimes not wanting to rise at days beginning and just wanted to lie beside thee And take in all that was you and embracing Proving that I am that ride or die & no one can replace me Thoughts of the future, sweet dreams of you and I down an aisle Turned into horrible nightmares of only I going wild I stand motionless, soulless, heartless full of coldness Cause you only let, this emotional pet destroy what we had and she stole my next Scene of life, my dream of life it seems so right and it felt so nice To know that I had received my prize what God had set aside? For me….it was all for me I sacrificed my breathe to bring you happiness But you stole the physical and mental and brought me emptiness And who would only guess, while learning what was wrong you went jet to the left And laid up with this bitch who cup isn’t even half full And what it’s filled with can only be described as stool Cause like you she’s full of shit And my attempt to believe you is making me sick And my attempt to receive you is making me quit Continue to indulge in you is making me miss The love that God has in store for me so I give You the space to realize you And I the space to materialize NEW! And I’m thru…. |