confession

He raped me
Cause I said no
He didn't listen
Cause I said no
He stole my choice
Cause i said no
He raped me
Cause I said no
I went with my friend
To be her cover story
Didn't know that at the time
And didn't know it would hurt me
It was getting late
But she was still lonely
Waiting on her man
Her lover her baby
There were no more buses around
Couldn't get home
We had to spend the night
So far from home
I thought he was my friend
So i wasn't too nervous to share his bed
When dark came
And everyone was asleep
He made his intentions clear
He was the leader, and i the sheep
I fought I wrestled
I twisted and turned
But he was a man with a hot iron
And i was going to get burned
Shame and humility
I don't know why,kept me from screaming
From the top of my lungs
I was scared and ashamed
For something i had not done
I lay motionless as he stripped me of my rights
Kept telling myself
Big girls don't cry
He pumped and he grunted
To his satisfaction
I could have been dead
All he cared about was getting some action
Eventually he rolled off
And over to his side
According to Tanya
Happy,content puffed up with pride
I survived that night
And the years after
But I was a different person
There wasn't the same ring
To my laughter
That was when I started
My decline to hell
Do you really think it would have mattered
If he'd spent a few nights in the cell?
He'd already stole
What was not given
I can only pray now
Eventually i'll get to heaven.