Decayed Love

We are soul mates....always! But now it's time to set me free.
There comes a time when I cannot keep you in my mind anymore.
Little is left of what we had, what we endured, eroded & decayed by a parasite known as addiction.
But yet the pain is still so constant.
You look down at my arms & what you see makes you look away but how can you stand by and watch as I ruin my life.
It stole our souls when we needed them the most, but most of all, it stole you!

Addiction, loss, happiness, and new beginnings...all things I would only have wanted to experience with you.
With pinned pupils & bloodshot eyes, I watched you love me, watched as you took me to heaven. It's hell where you take me now.
Nowhere left to go but down. And as I wake on this rainy Sunday afternoon, your place in our bed is empty.
I cannot go on pretending...life is too short for pretending. I no longer live for you, my love; I've begun to live for myself.
It’s the beginning of a new life, a life without dependence on you, without dependence on drugs.
Only memories of what once was.
You were the only person to ever see my soul for what it is!
To let me live is what I need from you now. I know you'll find your way.