Four Reasons

Then I hurt myself cuz I hurt you
Gave up on everything I thought I knew

I don’t even know who I am anymore
I close my eyes and count to four

Four reasons why I’m lost
Four reasons why I’m screaming
Four reasons why I hate myself
Four reasons why I’m bleeding

One: That I’m not good enough
Two: That I am scared
Three: I couldn’t save her
Four: That I was spared

No one thinks I’m good enough
That I am just a waste
I feel inclined to agree with them
After all I couldn’t face

I’m not scared of the physical
Those wounds I know will heal
It’s what’s inside that terrifies me
The pain I know I’ll always feel

I couldn’t save her
Broke my heart
I lost it all
I’m falling apart

Why’d she have to die?
And why’d I get to live?
For it to be the other way
Anything I would give

One, Two, Three, Four
Tears of blood crash to the floor...