Friend's Sigh

Wind and sand has caused uneasiness in the calm skies,

Inside my heart, there is still an uneasiness and discomfort.

Hoping to see you once more again,

will fate allow it?



I look longingly to see you there again.

As I stay here in this empty area,

guarding it and protecting it till you return.

Who can understand why I am here guarding it?

But, then I realize you were always here,

even if you are not here physically, you are here emotionally.



You who doesn’t question or complain.

My wish was only to be able to meet someone like you.

Someone who can understand myself better than myself.

Now, you’ve gone far beyond my eyes can see,

Yet, you never questioned my bond with you,

there is nothing difficult to understand.



You caused me to realize my dream,

as others tried to tear it down,

you who always stood there encouraging me and comforting me,

more than anyone ever could.



Who can replace you on this road full of bumps?

Perhaps, it could have ended or continued differently,

but first we must use our hearts to face each other.

With no words left unsaid between us.

Only then can we really have a bond of everlasting.



You who was once always there,

your hair has turned white without knowing,

the wind has blown over us again and again.

Not wishing, yet pleading to be able to start over.

Only wishing for you to return,

even if I behead myself I can’t exchange it back for your presence.



In the end all the struggling and avoiding,

looking out at the ocean before us,

has turned nothing but into a sea of fire.

I have no more strength anymore,

as I slowly give in and give up,

I know your heart has gone far beyond reach,

mine has slowly been dying,

as I remember the day you left.



As I wave my hand, I realized,

its no one’s fault but my own and no one’s to blame but myself.

There is no one who understands anymore,

only you can see the tears I cry.

Oh, how I wish you can return,

I wish to be able to grasp your heart tightly and never let go.



Who will continue to walk by my side through this?

My hair has turned white as seasons come and go,

wind has blown over me again and again.

I only wish for us to start over again once more.

As I stood waiting for you to return,

memories fill my mind, as I wonder if your hair has turned white like mine.



In the end all of the avoiding and struggling,

was wasted time to ignore what was already happening inside my heart.

No more strength, no more energy,

as everything is too late and there is no turning back.

Because, your heart has gone so far out of reach.

That, I will perhaps never be able to see again.



~Jae