My pain

I just wanna die ; but I mostly cry I don't wanna try cause all I get is a lie ; today tomarrow yesterday my heart was there to lay ; writing all the time to keep me away from crime ; I have to say ... I wish you would stay,some days I'm cold as I grow old ; some days I'm lonely other days I'm a foney ; somedays I'm loud other days I stay away from the crowd but somedays when I fall in love..... it hurts because I know it will fall apart? and you left my heart by