What It Feels Like

What It Feels Like

Go ahead and ask me what it feels like
I know you want to
The details are kinda gruesome
So I’ll spare you

If you wanna know the whole truth
Just be prepared
Cause it’s haunting and disgusting
And so unfair

It feels like something’s ripping through you
Burning everything beautiful in its path
It feels like someone’s got a tight grip
On everything you love and all you have

And they’re squeezing all you are
From the inside out and the outside in
And they’re tearing you to shreds
You can fight it if you want but you can’t win

And when it’s done you don’t feel anything
For a long, long time
You just wanna scrub yourself forever
And lose your mind

And when you find the strength to feel again
You start to cry
Because you realize what you’ve become
You’ve lost your mind

It feels like no one will ever want you
You’re so damaged and broken and so used
How could anyone ever love you?
You’re so angry and haunted and confused

And the memories never leave you
No they’re always there when you try to sleep
Though the bruises have all faded
They might as well have been part of your skin

Go ahead and ask me what it feels like
Just one warning
You don’t really want to know
Cause it’s haunting