The Unforgivable Sin

Should I tell someone or not? Will god forgive me? Will anyone forgive or believe me at all? That’s it. If I have to tell someone then it may as well be you.

“You did what John?”

“I’m sorry Lauren. I didn’t mean to it just...”

“John, this is unspeakable, this is unforgivable. Do you have any idea what you have done?”

“I’m sorry. It just sort of happened. She hit me and then I lost control and...”

“Do you really think crying about it is going to fool anyone? You are a monster John, you will be marked for life wherever you go. Assuming you even manage to get out alive.”

“If I admit it they might let me off easy. You know what the American system is like right? They will let me go won’t they? I’m really sorry."

Who does this fool think he is? He thinks that kneeling before me and blubbering will do anything. I hope Sarah puts this bastard away for life. He has no right to be on our streets, and he should hope they give him a full life sentence; rape will mark you forever.

“They won’t let you out John. Now get up and walk in there and admit what you did like a man. And wipe your eyes you big baby.”

“You’re right Lauren, I have to do this. It’s the right thing, maybe eventually she will forgive me.”

“Goodbye John. If you ever return then don’t try and contact me or Sarah again. You have brought enough pain and suffering down on our heads to last a lifetime.”


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“You are scum Mr. Yates; you robbed the innocence of a young woman without any remorse. Get down there Yates and don’t get up until I lift my boot off of your disgusting little face, you rat.”

I deserve this. I am a monster.

“I hope you are not camera shy Yates, they have been looking for the nasty little creature for weeks now and it looks like it has turned up.”

I am a nasty little creature.

“Oh what’s that Yates? Are you crying? Well let me wipe the tears away with my boot. You think this is hard? Just you wait till the guys you are in with get a hold of you. You are a miserable little coward.”

“At least I know that I did the right thing whatever happens in the end....officer.”

“The right thing Yates? You don’t really believe anyone will care about that do you? You should have run while you had the chance. Officer Longsbridge! Take this scum away to his cell and call the higher ups. Let him get acquainted with the hell he deserves. Oh you can get up now Yates, I have more important things to do; like washing my boot."

I did the right thing. Right?