Real life story

I have a disease that is called small cells cancer, and I got it from smoking cigarettes. the day I found out is the day i will never forget and I had so many things that I still had not done but I was not afraid for what I knew was coming. I had to figure out how to tell my family, the ones who had been beside me through everything. That night as I sat in my bed I coughed for a second then doubled over in pain, and it wouldn't stop so I left for the hospital. That night my family was gathered in my room waiting to hear what I already knew.
When the doctor came in my two sons stood up and asked what was wrong. As the doctor explained they stood in shock because they couldn't believe that I didn't have a lot of time left on earth. The doctor only gave me a couple months or less to spend my last moments with them. The second youngest child in the room was my twelve year old granddaughter, as her father tried to explain what was wrong and why the doctor said I won't be here much longer, I could see the sadness growing in her hazel eyes. She meant everything to me and I spoiled her to death. My son and his wife,two daughters and I would walk into Wal-mart to buy only a couples things and we would walk out with at least a hundred dollars' worth of toys and clothes. to know that I'm not going to see my two granddaughters grow up kills me even more.
Without my family I would not have made it this far in my life. As I lay in the dark, cold,smelly, and silent hospital room as my last weeks slip through my fingers like sand from the beach, I wonder about my kids and grandbaby's and how I won't get to spend anymore Christmas's or birthdays with them, it's sad to think that any minute could be my last. Twentieth of may comes and I get to be with my family again, I see them all around me looking depressed but laughing at the past and the things we did. Time goes by faster than i thought and they have to go back to Roanoke Rapids, and I have to stay here in South Carolina. I say goodbye to everyone but I tell Temperance to stay behind for a moment so I can talk to her. As she comes over to sit on the bed I make myself more comfortable and scoot over so she will have room to sit. She looks at me with sadness in her beautiful eyes and for a moment we don't say anything and she starts to cry.
I wipe her tears away and tell her,"everything will be okay your parents will be there for you if you need them, just remember as the stars come out and the moon shines, I'm right there beside you and watching over you to make sure you're okay. Don't cry, I just wanted to say that I'll miss you and I will be in your heart,no matter what." "But grandma I want you to stay here with me, I don't want you to leave," Temperance said between sobbing. I wiped her face again and said "Baby, you will see me again one day. Now keep this in your mind and your heart, Okay?" I said with one last hug "I love you, goodbye." As she let go her hand went down my arm and stopped at my hand and she held it for just a few seconds and left to meet her parents outside the door.
May 25,2006, I had just gotten out of school and as I walked to the car I could see the sadness on my parents face and as I opened the door and sat down I asked about going to see grandma Saturday and dad said, "Well we are not going to see her, she passed away this morning." I gasped in disbelief but I couldn't hold back the tears that built up in my eyes and I let them fall like rain streaking down my face. I told dad that before I left her room last weekend she had told me goodbye and that she loved me, I asked why she said goodbye instead of see you next week like she would normally do. All he could say was that she was giving up because she knew it was her time to go and we sat in the living room and cried together as we remembered a wonderful mother and amazing grandmother.