Armor of Steel

You have come to know me so well
So much I wish I could share and tell,
But this armor of steel I have placed around my heart
Will keep everyone from reaching the tender part,
Where I know I can always hide
When my emotions I can not confide,
Because I know if I let them go,
It could only lead to pain
I do not think I could bear it again;

So I'll keep them hidden in the deepest recesses of my soul
Knowing I am not complete or whole,
If I could or even would
Ever fall in love again,
I would want it to be you my special friend,
Someone I could tell everything to
Be totally honest without losing you,
The passions you aroused in me
Have gone beyond what I expected them to be,
The thoughts of you constantly crossing my mind
Yet in this knowing, there will never come a time;
For this armor of steel to melt away
Is so far in the distance, day after day;

For this is something I can not start
I will not endure another broken heart,
Everything you have ever had to give
Betrayed suddenly, you will lose the will to live,
I do not mean taking a life
Just hoping that you can endure the strife,
The pain that came along for the ride
So you put up your armor of steel and hide,
Because you won't risk it or try again
Even with you my special friend,
Yes I do know if I begin to feel, whether it is false or real,
That my heart has not abandoned this armor of steel
Protecting me from emotions that I can not, will not share
Even though I know my friend you will always be there,

I guess I wrote these words to make myself feel better
So even when you have gone away,
You will know where I came from in this letter
And knowing me as well as you do,
Hopefully will keep our friendship lasting and true,
This armor of steel that has a hold on me
Will eventually disappear and set me free.

Birdie