The Acceptance of ME

I look deep into the eyes of thee,
Sadness and frustration is all I see,
I wish for your forgiveness,
I am alone in this bar with a Guinness,
Trying to fill this empty feeling,
So light, I might reach the ceiling.

Why can’t I do it right,
Why must I lose this fight?
Tell me how to fix this,
If only it was one kiss,
Like Snow White or Sleeping Beauty,
I am the prince, you are my duty.

It was not my fault it happened so,
I wish this disease would just go,
Please understand this hurts me too,
I hope our love is strong and true,
One day I will cast it all away,
Like a sorcerer maybe one day.

I did not want this disease.
I did not break my lease,
I still keep my body strong,
I am still very young,
Do not walk away at night,
I truly hate this fight.

I dislike our story,
I am so sorry,
I drink night and day,
You just walk away,
I feel very sick,
But, it is something I did not pick.

Please understand,
Don’t let go of my hand,
I love you so much,
I pray to feel your touch,
I don’t think I am the only one that is sick,
Your skull is so thick.

I am happy with who I am,
I will keep being Sam,
Nothing will change me or this feeling,
The disease will not stop being,
I will no longer keep blame for this disease,
I accept this is a part of me,
I have H.I.V.