Staying Numb

My life is at a numb
Feeling no pain and love
Not having to escort a dove around town
Not having a shattered heart when she fly’s away
This is perfect, being numb
All this time to myself
Enjoying the peace and quiet
My mind clear and clean
No more feeling agony
No more insecurity

Suddenly I feel a pinch in my heart
A smile of appears of joyful memories of the time we had together
The holding and kissing
The laughs and moments
Remembering the angry that twisted my soul
Cheating, lying, broken promises
You punctured my heart so bad
I pause my life breathing back to the numbness
Realizing your sweetness was really sour
Realizing you were always a slut

I’m back to my numbness self
But it’s when I’m numb
That I found you, my love