Ruined Life

I have ruined myself
I never should have done it
I never should have trusted him
He said he knew what he was doing
but he didn’t and
I shouldn’t have believed him
My life has been changed
for in nine months
I will have something
I didn’t want at this age
I am not ready for this
I don’t know what to do
or who to ask
I am alone in this world know
for the next nine months
Then, it will be me and the young
by ourselves
to try and survive in this cruel world
I don’t stand a chance
Nobody will help me
not even my family
It was my choice, my terrible choice
Now, I will be haunted by it
for the rest of my days