Leaver 5

Leaver 5

“I know all about you
and the brilliant, unstable love you hold at bay...”

Falling away I will accept
the time we spent together
as enough;
I will do my best to be
the man you would want
if we still knew each other.

Murmuring quietly beneath my breath
my half-prayers build momentum -
habitually
trance-like
I whisper, “...anybody else but a fool...”
And the words spring upward, heaven bound,
much louder than I intend.

That’s when I understand.

The depth of the want
is a manic kiss;
your lightest touch -
a different view of things...

Catching myself a moment later,
I feel the memory;
I know you won’t.