Getting through the longest, darkest night. |
Get me through this night, this long, drawn-out arena for sleep and dream, this dark allocation for Winter Solstice. Allow me my own moon to offset this ebon shroud, present me a snippet of left-over sun to fend off the obsessive compulsive hours awaiting. This is dragon time, a time I’d like to slay, but cannot, for I am without adequate lance. Cold winds blow and shadows dance and stars and planets dot the sky. Velvet is the firmament that brags of its eternal stead! So why should I be so afraid? And why should I become the coal to fuel the kiln of panic and depression? Nay, time’s extended bragging notwithstanding, I can make hot chocolate and synchronize myself with furnace hums, or even with the rackety clack of gutter duct upon the house. There is no time but now; there is no life but this. TV wears out its welcome, online wears out its welcome, loneliness wears out its welcome--but it does not care. For it is without feeling, it is without pity, it is sans remorse. I do my best to ignore it, yet it mocks and teases and haws like an onager just to get my goat. Ah, yes, a sadist awaiting sunset loneliness is! It points a bony finger at the kitchen clock and grins like a satyr-pimp as I grimace, thinking it is closer to midnight when it is actually eight o’clock. So get me through this darkest night, this lightless catacomb of long wherein time sits with folded arms and stutters poor and guiltless. My pleas are heard, and thus ‘tis I to build a bridge unto the dawn with presence and resolve, by waving away bony pimps, and staring dragons in the face while holding onto life. 32 Lines Writer’s Cramp Co-Winner 12-21-15 |