JULY 16, 2015. GATES OF HELL OPEN

ONLY THE WICKED ....

RACISM .... WAS SOMETHING LIKE A PERSONAL COME-UPPANCE .... THEY HAD EVEN BEGUN TO ALLEGE THAT IT WAS MORE OF A PRIVATE HELL .... THAN ANYTHING ELSE ....TO EACH .... HIS OWN SUFFERING .... HAPPY HAPPY .... BIG FUN .... JUST FOR YOU .... AND NO ELSE OR NOTHING ELSE MATTERED ....SO MY PROTESTS AND PLEADINGS WERE TRUNCATED TO THE STATUS OF ACCEPTING THAT MY ADVERSITY WAS JUST .... MINE ....
IT DIDN'T HAVE TO BE SANE OR RATIONAL OR LOGICAL .... NOR CONSISTENT WITH ANYBODY ELSE'S LIFE EXPERIENCE OR OPINIONS OR PERSPECTIVES ....DANTE'S INFERNO .... JUST LEVELS TO ASCEND .... LIFE WAS A PURGATORY WHERE PSYCHICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY .... YOU ATTENUATED YOUR OWN TORMENT AS A CONDITION OF ONLY WHAT YOU KNEW, THOUGHT YOU KNEW, BELIEVED, EXPERIENCED, AND ACCORDING TO YOUR CAPABILITIES .... TOO MANY PEOPLE SEEMED TO BE THREATENING ME .... TOO MANY SEEMED TO WANT ME DEAD FOR THE PAST AND FOR THE FUTURE .... TOO MANY PEOPLE WANTED ME TO EXPERIENCE THE HORRIBLE DEATH OF RACISM BY BEING MURDERED OR KILLED BY GUN-TOTING ASSAILANTS LIKE CRIMINALS, GANGSTERS, FELONS, THUGS, POLICEMEN, ASSASSINS, ETC .... ( We would rush the blood to his head .... every ounce of blood within his body would be circulating to his head .... like because he thinks he's smart .... because he likes to think .... look at him .... just because we allow him to entertain his own bugged thoughts .... then .... BAMMMM .... we shoot him in the head .... we spill that cotton-pickin' blood .... and watch how much of it oozes and squirts .... from his eyes, his nose, his mouth and throat .... and then the brain, skull, and head fragments .... would be like an antique jigsaw .... parts unknown .... parts found .... parts rumored to remain .... others never to be seen again .... skullduggery .... ) ( Then everyone would know .... the reason .... that he lived for so long .... the reason that his life seemed so sugar sweet .... the reason that he was "so free .... " the reason that those evil hateful racist bastards .... didn't cut his nuts .... and swing him from a tree .... ) ( And some of their other alternatives: having him beaten to death ( a fate they say they reserve for little or small-sex men ) ... starvation and torture, knives and blades to his skin as his body deprived and his organs diminished .... blinding his eyes .... removing one or both eyes .... making him a woman .... and then having men conduct or perform their sex .... rape-mutilation-defilement while using crude and blunt objects .... burning him alive .... a foreign prison .... paraplegia .... ( for the servicemen and all the dead, missing, and tortured troops .... ) disability, paralysis .... or some other devilment .... while already being rendered hopelessly comatose .... "and he would still feel every single bit of it ...." )
BUT ENOUGH OF THAT SHIT .... THE EVIL HELL THAT AWAITS ALL PEOPLE COULD HAVE AS EASILY BEEN MY OWN .... THE FUCKING ASSHOLE BASTARDS KILLED ME .... EXPECTED ME TO LIVE .... AND TRANSFORMED ME INTO THIS SUB-HUMAN FREAK SHOW .... WHERE EVERYBODY COULD AMUSE THEMSELVES WITH MY DEGRADATION AND HUMILIATION ( Then also desired that I further kill myself, go berserk upon them without any direct physical provocation or confrontation .... "You tawkin' to
me ...." ) ( fucking cowards .... ) see myself with physical imperfections, including mental illnesses or defects or just accept all of their malice towards me .... just because they were evil .... mostly "white noise", neglect, omissions, deprivations, cruelty, persecutions of both personal and sexual nature .... ) THEY MADE BELIEVE THAT THEY LIKED MY CREATIVE WRITINGS AND AMUSED THEMSELVES BY READING AND SELLING THEM ( financial and monetary exploitation .... ) ( They don't pay me a single cent
because of it .... ) WHEN THEY STILL HATED, REVILED, VILIFIED, CRITICIZED, AND FURTHER ASSASSINATED ME .... THEY IGNORED MY ACCOUNTING DEGREE AND MY COLLEGE EDUCATION .... WHEN THEY EXORBITANTLY PAY AND THROW MONEY AT PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE REAL OR FAKE COLLEGE CREDENTIALS ( Some don't even have
my credentials .... ) .... THEY WERE LIKE THE FUMING, SMOKY, STEAMING BURNING SHIT .... THAT I FANTASIZED FOR MOST PEOPLE .... SURE .... I WANTED THEM TO DIE .... AND PREFERABLY WITHIN THEIR ORIGINAL FALLEN STATE .... WITHOUT CONTRITION, PENITENCE, OR ABSOLUTION ....
WITHOUT THE SALVATION OF JC .... WITHOUT KNOWING OR WANTING ANY BETTER ....

SO PAY ME AS AN ACCOUNTANT .... AND NOT AS SOME MINIMUM WAGE WORKER .... OR LOW-SKILLED EMPLOYEE WITH JUST A HIGH SCHOOL EDUCATION ....
ADD MORE GAS TO THE FIRE .... THEY WOULD RATHER PAY INCOMPETENT, LESS CEREBRAL PEOPLE .... TO DO THAT TYPE OF FINANCIAL WORK .... WHILE ABSOLUTELY KNOWING THAT THEIR WORK WILL BE INCORRECT ....
( corrupt .... ) WHY THE FUCK PAY ANYBODY, THEN ....?
CAN'T THESE EVIL REPREHENSIBLE BASTARDS REALIZE THAT THE REAL EVIL .... WOULD BE TO STIFF EVERYBODY .... REGARDLESS OF THE LATER PRICE-YOU-PAY-TO-BE-PAID-ALL-THAT-MONEY .... AS IF THE MALIGNANCIES .... ONLY AFFECT SOME PEOPLE .... AND NOT GODDAM FUCKING ALL OF US ....

SHE IS ADMONISHING ME TO CRY .... BY THRUSTING A STICK TOWARDS MY REAR .... WHILE SITTING NEXT TO ME .... ( obscene ) THEN DERISIVELY LAUGHING AT ME .... BECAUSE SHE SAYS I THOUGHT SHE WAS A NICE PERSON .... THEN DEMANDING TO KNOW THE REASON THAT I DIDN'T BECOME THE STUPID LITTLE GAY BOY .... THAT SHE HAD INTENDED FOR MY LIFE ....

STILL LATER, SHE TELLS ME THAT NORRIS BROWN WAS A GOOD PERSON UNLIKE THE EVIL PEOPLE THAT SHE WORKED WITH OR UNLIKE THE EVIL PEOPLE OF HOLY NAZARENE WHO DIDN'T LIKE HER OR ME .... WHILE SANDRA BROWN ( ANNIE WILKES ) ( still assails me with slaps or punches .... ) ( and says with that shrill air-filled giggle .... "Even my mother .... didn't know how evil I was .... " ) SAYS THAT SHE WILL NEVER LIKE THE MUSICAL GROUP, WAR, FROM THE 70's ....

"I pay my money to the welfare line"
"I see you standing in it every time"

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF BEING INCAPACITATED ( like ill within a hospital bed .... ) WHILE FOMIE HEMINGWAY PREFERS TO ASSAULT AND ASSAIL ME WITH HARD SLAPS AND PUNCHES

"AND THE NEXT TIME YOU INSULT MY FAMILY .... I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU ...."

HE IS ALSO SITTING UPRIGHT WITHIN HIS RECLINER CHAIR AT 175 COOPER STREET IN BROOKLYN, NEW YORK WHILE REMINDING ME,

"I AM A WHITE MAN ....!!!"

"DON'T MY STINK AND NASTY FEET .... LOOK GOOD TO YOU .... ?!!"

"YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO HATE WHITE PEOPLE .... AND YOU DON'T HATE THEM .... SINCE THEY LOOK GOOD TO YOU .... YOU 'DO' SEE WHITE PEOPLE AS LOOKING GOOD .... BEING ATTRACTIVE .... OR LOOKING BETTER THAN BLACK PEOPLE, DON'T YOU .....?"

"NOBODY CAN BE THAT .... CRAZY ...."

"ME AND YOUR MOMMA .... SEE YOU LIKE .... SHIT ...."

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF OTHERS WHO REMARK OR COMMENT OR INQUIRE,

"DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HATE WHITE PEOPLE ....?!!"
"DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH MONEY HAS BEEN DENIED YOU BY WHITE PEOPLE ....?!!"
"DO YOU KNOW HOW EVIL WHITE PEOPLE ARE ....?!!"

SOUL-LESS WHITE PEOPLE SHOULD BE BURNING IN HELL, ALREADY .... ( Isn't that the reason that they look pale and white and have cyborg transistor circuit board scanner eyes ....? ) ( The Masters .... )

WELL, IF THE SEX ( white sex is not weak .... another fabrication, social convention, hyperbolic lie, and deception to derail and deter .... black people from the truth .... ) .... WAS A CHICKEN .... WOULD YOU ALWAYS PREFER THE WHITE MEAT AS COMPARED TO THE DARK MEAT ... ?

PEOPLE SHOULDN'T THINK ABOUT LOOKS .... THEY SHOULD JUST REVEL .... AND ENJOY EACH OTHER'S SEX .... ( baths are better .... for everybody .... !!! )

TOYS 'R' US .... ( The People Store .... )

WHITE MEN ARE ATTEMPTING TO DOMINATE EVERY FUCKING LIVING HUMAN AND OTHER CREATURE .... THROUGH SODOMY .... AND FORCING OR COERCING SUBMISSION AND SUBMISSIVENESS .... ( That's why white women love and "respect" them so much .... )
( Because .... because of big white daddy ....
EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY .... SUCKS .... )

DON'T YOU LIKE TO BE SUCKED, MICHAEL ....
DON'T YOU LIKE THE FEELING OF YOUR DICK IN SOMEBODY'S MOUTH ....
DON'T YOU LIKE BEING SUCKED .... OFF ....
DON'T YOU LIKE POPPING OFF IN SOMEBODY'S MOUTH ....
DON'T YOU LIKE POPPING OFF AND RUNNING DOWN SOMEBODY'S THROAT ....
( Hitting the back of the it, the gag reflex, the gagging and murbling, the licking, smacking of mouth and lips, the eating and swallowing, the draining and washing and sucking down the throat, the ingestion and satiation .... )

WELL, WE SURE DO ....

THIS IS THE HELL AND DOMINATION .... THAT RULES THE ENTIRE WORLD AND THE ENTIRE EARTH ....THE ENTIRE PLANET ....

THEIR FIGHT .... IS .... THE MAN .... DOMINATING .... GLOATING .... SNEERING .... SMIRKING .... ABOUT YOUR ULTIMATE .... INEVITABLE .... SEXUAL .... AND PHYSICAL .... SUBMISSION .... TO HIM .... AND ONLY .... HIM .... HIS GREED .... LUST .... POWER .... WEALTH .... RACISM .... AND EVIL .... THEIR EVERLASTING AND ETERNAL .... VICTORY ....

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF MY AUNTIE, WILLIE MAE PAYTON, WHO SEEMS FORLORN AND DEBILITATED FROM HER BOUT WITH PNUEMONIA, HER VOICE TIMOROUS AND TREMBLING, FAINT AND FADING,

"MICHAEL .... FIGHTING PNUEMONIA IS NOT EASY .... BUT THE PEOPLE IN HOLLYWOOD .... DO NOT LIKE YOU .... THEY DIDN'T LIKE ME, EITHER .... THEY ALLOWED ME TO WATCH THEM .... AND LAUGH ABOUT THE THINGS THEY WANTED ME TO LAUGH ABOUT THEM .... BUT THEY STILL HATED ME .... LOOK AT ME NOW .... PLEASE DON'T LIKE OR WRITE ABOUT THEM ...."

MY GRANDMOTHER, BEATRICE J. BLACK, SEEMS TO BE CRYING AND SOBBING BECAUSE SHE SAYS HER GREAT-GRANDMOTHER .... WAS A VICTIM OF THE EVIL AND HATRED OF BLACK PEOPLE .... LIKE THE BLACK PEOPLE OF WEST TAMPA, FLORIDA ....

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF BEING THREATENED OR MENACED BY ASSAULT AND ASSAIL LIKE SLAPS OR PUNCHES FROM TELEVISION TALK SHOW HOST, ELLEN DEGENERES ( Mary Grice eyes and smile or laugh .... ) ( Don't write about having sex with white women .... they're evil, hateful, and see you .... or believe you .... TO BE AN INFERIOR BLACK MAN .... )

I AM MAKING LOVE AND HAVING SEX WITH HER SO I RUB THAT HELLACIOUS BLONDE KINKY HINEY UNTIL IT BLEEDS ( bleeds real good, too .... )
THEN READY FOR THIS .... I CUM SO HARD THAT SHE BEGS ME TO MARRY HER ....
( like she did Chris Rock, Marlan Wayans, and Jim McDaniel .... )

I AM MAKING LOVE AND HAVING SEX WITH EVIL AND HATEFUL AND NASTY ASIAN WOMEN WHO HAVE BECOME LIKE EVEN MORE 'HO' NASTY SLUTS ( years ago .... they only wanted to fuck their own kind .... ) WITH AND FOR ALL BIG AND THICK DICK BLACK MEN ( 2 X 4's )
( Black men that they hate .... like they also hate Michael Hemingway .... and torment him with "Mao" ) SO I SEARCH AND FIND A DARK BROWN BLACK TAN SHIT-COLORED PROSTHETIC BLACK MALE MONKEY TAIL DEVICE .... THAT I STRAP TO MY OWN HARD DICKIE .... WORK THAT THING AND PUSH ALL 12 TO 14 INCHES INSIDE HER .... JUST TO WATCH THE RIPPLE EFFECT .... MAYBE A PARADIGM SHIFT .... AND THAT GOOKY STUPID PUSSY ROLL AND VACILLATE .... LIKE A SERIES OF JAPANESE AND KOREAN BEACH TSUNAMIS AND EARTHQUAKE AFTERSHOCKS .... THAT WON'T STOP THOSE NASTY RANCID GREASE AND SOY OIL SMELLING PUSSIES FROM CUMMING, TREMBLING, AND ROLLING .... FOR THE NEXT WEEK OR SO .... AND THEN ESPECIALLY WHEN ALL THEY HAVE TO DO IS THINK ABOUT THEIR TWATS .... AND THEY START SWEATING AGAIN AUTOMATICALLY ....
( Break and tear that ass perineum .... and then eating and later shitting .... is like the orgasm of the masses .... )

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF BEING THREATENED OR MENACED BY ASSAULT AND ASSAIL FROM TRACEY ARCHER, ONCE OF BRONX HIGH SCHOOL OF SCIENCE AS SHE SPATS ME THEN SLAPS ME

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF BEING THREATENED OR MENACED BY ASSAULT AND ASSAIL LIKE SLAPS OR PUNCHES OR FIST FIGHTS FROM CLASSIC ACTOR, ERIC ROBERTS
( Don't write about having sex with white women .... they're evil, hateful, and see you .... or believe you .... TO BE AN INFERIOR BLACK MAN .... )

DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING SMALL YOU ARE ....?

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF BEING THREATENED OR MENACED BY ASSAULT AND ASSAIL LIKE SLAPS OR PUNCHES OR FIST FIGHTS FROM FORMER NFL QUARTERBACK, BRETT FAVRE,
AS HE REMARKS OR COMMENTS OR INQUIRES,

"DO YOU KNOW MUCH TOM BRADY HATES YOU .... JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE NO LONGER SEE HIM AS THE PERFECT CLEAN-CUT QUARTERBACK ....? HE HATES YOU SO MUCH .... THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN BORN .... "

"AND DON'T WRITE ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH WHITE WOMEN .... DO YOU KNOW HOW SMALL YOU ARE ....?"

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF A KNARLING, TEEMING, AND ENLARGING OR ENCOMPASSING TREE OF LIFE .... ( Are you ready to return to the dust ....
or to return to the heinous hellfire ....? )

I AM AWARE OR BECOME AWARE OF A CLEAN WELL-LIGHTED PLACE ( an Ernest Hemingway short story .... )

I AM TRAVELLING THROUGH SMALL CITIES AND TOWNS BY RAIL AS I APPEAR TO BE ARRIVING AT AN ELEVATED ANTIQUATED TRAIN STATION AND DEPARTING FROM A TRAIN UPON THE DEAD CENTER OF THE PLATFORM

IN ANOTHER INSTANCE, I HAVE BEEN GIVEN DIRECTIONS OR INSTRUCTIONS UPON MY ARRIVAL AND DESTINATION YET WRITTEN MATERIALS SEEM TO BE INVECTIVE, DEROGATORY, AND VERY SARCASTIC

I AM A CHEF OR PROFESSIONAL COOK ( Hi, children .....)
( South Park ) ( They killed Kenny ....
and Michael Hemingway, too .... ) WHO IS PREPARING CREAM CHEESE SANDWICHES OR SIMILAR PASTRIES FILLED WITH CREAM CHEESE ALTHOUGH NOW AS IF AN EMPLOYEE OF A PRIVATE OR COMMUTER RAIL AND TRAIN SYSTEM WITHIN ITS DINING CAR OR OTHER STATION EATERY OR CAFETERIA ....

IN ANOTHER INSTANCE, I AM ADHERING TO SOME WRITTEN OR PRINTED RECIPE WHILE PEDESTRIANS, COMMUTERS, TRAVELLERS, AND TRAIN RIDING
PATRONS APPEAR TO BE AMUSED OR LAUGHING AT AND RIDICULING ME .... WHILE THEY DINE AND ENGORGE AND FEAST AND CONSUME OTHER GOURMET OR PRE-PREPARED CREAM CHEESE SANDWICHES, BAGELS, OR PASTRIES .... THAT PERHAPS HAVE BEEN BETTER PREPARED OR PURCHASED ELSEWHERE ....

THEY ARE ALL LAUGHING, SMIRKING, AND RIDICULING ME FROM THE CORNERS OF THEIR SNIDE MOUTHS AND EYES ....