Castaway

9/20/16

"Castaway"

She has her hands stretched out waiting for the divine to embrace her.

Shit now my fist balled up
I: am Devine
Look in the mirror, tell myself "never chase her"
Away
"You lose you and fuck it! YOU WON'T HAVE ANYTHING

She was scared begging and yearning to flee from this place.

STEPHAN GONE
Lately I'M GONE
Fuck begging just ain't only gone be me ima take

All that kept her going was the thirst. She hoped that her tomorrows would taste better than her yesterdays.

I hope somebody, I hope somebody prays
Not that fake shit but if they could pray for my life's sake
I tried to do it but glass shatters. I'm screaming in silence
The switch clicked
Fuck this shit, what's this life matter

She called out " I'm here"!! Beseeching those with a conscience and heart to hear her plea but again she was denied. Invisible and as unappreciated as the air we breathe. The world abandoned her, forgot her, pushed her to the side like litter.

The same girl say "It's them against me"
Or say fuck it and leave
Motherfuckers lose their hearts
Turn evil eye
Feel deceived
Deceiving themselves
A cowards a coward a coward, to careless to take care of me

She soon lowered her hands and sighed because she knew she had become invisible.

Naw look up Lil mama
You're SHITS empirical
You not invisible
So gotdam beautiful kills their self-worth
Really they really feeling you

They could no longer feel her warm spirit, they didn't care about her infectious laugh anymore and they certainly didn't care about her queen-like features.

My pussy gold my children heirs
My minds a trillion
I literally: CAN'T care
Ain't letting nobody fuck with me

She was now a castaway marooned on her own island. She didn't cry though , there were no more tears to cry.

But then came the flood
And the blood wouldn't stop
And the pain threw up
And she wouldn't let em touch her
And the spirit wouldn't stop
And she elected not to either
The policy's paid and she could just go
Find Stephan where he at, and God could heal her soul

She took another deep breath and clinched her fist and promised to never be fettered and attached to this world's supply of love.

But then there's Princess Jenesis
And I know that's pure love.

She would love herself until that overflowed and spilled on inadequacy's doorstep. "Maybe being a castaway is my reward" she said to herself. People scoff at a piece of coal forgetting they are the beginnings of diamonds. The ugliness of the world wasn't fit to be in her presence and she would never forget that.

[-featuring S.R. Pedlar]