Schizophrenic

it's hard to keep my sanity and hard to see reality
with all these demons haunting me taunting me
teasing me and mocking me watching me in my sleep
and in me dreams i think they're fucking stalking me
i can't escape or evade them i can't even get a break
they follow me everywhere counting every step i take
breathing sweating panting guessing everyday i'm fucking stressing
every night i close my eyes they got me fucking counting blessings
how much of this can i take before i lose all control
my tolerance is wearing thin they got me fearing for my soul
everyday and every night you can see it in my eyes
shunned away from the light can't you see i'm petrified
they got me fearing for my life there is nowhere safe to go
fear of day and fear of night they put a bounty on my soul
everytime i try to rest all i think about is death
i'm waiting for this shit to end until then i'll hold my breath

no one ever loved you
no one ever cared
no one give a shit
'cause no ones ever there
so quit lying to yourself
and open up your eyes
just get it over with
they all have to die

theyre invading in my sleep theyre invading in my dreams
insonias a motherfucker i cant no privacy
they lie to me play hide and seek theyre driving me to lunacy
theyre everywhere they dont care if im awake or asleep
are these guys for real or am i hallucinating
doctors say its in my head this shit is fucking frustrating
im running out of options preechers say i need gods light
but it doesnt seem to help the voice say to end my life
they tell me humans are too fickle that they all deserve to die
they abandoned me like a sheet they hung me out to fucking dry
theyre controling every thought theyre controling every mood
theyre not just in my dreams anymore theyre getting harder to elude
they got me streched got me pressed my heart is pounding in my chest
its gotten to the point where im feeling like i am possessed
its a fucking living nightmare because theyre always in my face
they wont fucking let me go theyre making me a mental case

no one ever loved you
but we always cared
no one gave a shit
but were always there
so quit lying to yourself
and open up your eyes
just get it done
they all have to die

azazel satan devil beelzabub and abadon
razakel wants me to kill until every motherfuckers is gone
evil rushes forward drilling deep into my mind
i'm fighting hard the urge to kill but theyre counting down the time
a mental block a mental shock its taking everything i got
theyre good at what they do it only takes them one shot
the pressure starts to get to me im getting ready to fucking crack
fucking snap insomniac as serious as a heart attack
everyday its getting harder i dont know how long ill last
the madication isnt wroking i can still hear them laugh
its getting down to the wire i can feel im on the brink
eventhoguh i see a shrink it doesnt do a fucking thing
a battle for my sanity and im on the losing end
i know that theyre my enemy but they act like theyre my friend
they held me tight every night they listen to me when i cry
fuck it everybody's gonna die