Insanity

Every day
I fall in an out
Step forward then back
My heart beats then stops
And I cannot stop
Loving you

I tell myself why
I am crossing a line.
I understand the reasons
Against me are so weighted
My heart should never
Even be lifted.

I know the scene
My hope is dashed
And I know that light
Will never come back
But still my heart beats
Then stops
and breaks
Over and over again

And every day
Every moment
I go through this
Fruitless dance
Of falling in
And falling out
And knowing
But not knowing how
I also seem
To come back to where
I began.

Why is it that
Whenever I cross my heart
And close my eyes
And tell myself
Love is just pretty lies
I somehow always
Find myself
Back to you?

Why is it that
When I know the chances
That there will be other dances
With other guys I shall meet
I only want to
Dance with you

Why must my mind
Be filled with your laughter
And why must I live
For the next time
I can make you smile

And why must I fall back in
Every time I see you
Even though I know
Loving me would be a sin
And we would never even begin

Why is it still
Despite all the reasons why
I shouldn't
And couldn't
My heart cannot
ever stop
loving you