Past Despairs; Future Hopes

Maybe thoughts and emotions set a overwhelming haze
So I walk through misty translucence throughout the caverns
Of my heart
To understand how truly deep and vast it is
My whole being teetering on the edge
ready to fall at any given moment
Creeping into the valley of my soul
It gives me a glimpse of the other side
The side I've refused to acknowledge
It's been so long I don't even know what I
Rejected

How can I not laugh?
When the pain sets in again
And naps slip away; the day starts again
How can I not find joy in all I do? When the day threatens to overtake me
Yet again
Games, laughter and good times can only do so much
Until we meet again

So angry at the world, your faint breathes
break me down
The details become all the more clear
Nose flaring and relaxing, subtle movement rises underneath the lids
Hands slightly clasped at the edge of our blanket
My self destructive rage boils and festers,
you breath life into me again, inhale and
hold
Exhale and let go
Become
Be