Broken: Dark, Horror and Haunted

This writing is a message about how scary love is.

Broken : dark, horror and haunted

Thinking about my past relationships was a nightmare and I feel like I don't want to have another relationship the last one was 2017, my heart was in pain, I hate the feeling of being dumped.

That is always my role; used, abused and a lot more and If I am going to write down it will cover up of what I feel about myself. People say I am easy to be with;lovable and sweet. They say I am but to the men who has been a part of my life didn't noticed those qualities at all instead they dumped me.

I have wanted to have someone in my life but I guess, "I AM NOT THAT LUCKY" having a relationship right now will just be in mind.

The truth is I AM SCARED TO DEATH to have a partner. All the fears and doubts will flash into my mind. (Weird but it is true)it is like if I go back to have a relationship it is going to be horror and it will haunt me.

I feel soo worthless right now at this very moment (this may sound like an echo) but I am really really sad. Can't describe.

Well, I guess I have to tell myself to face the horror, I hope I can.